She said something to me yesterday (during my post-wedding head check-up) that I have been pondering ever since. I didn't TELL her that I had expected life to get easier as I got older, but I think she read my mind (or my mail, as she so often does). In defense of myself, don't we all look at our old grannies and grampies and think "Wow, what a life they have. They're not busy, they don't really know everything that's going on, they don't use credit cards so they're not in debt, etc..." ?? Am I the only one who smiles at older people and looks forward to a simpler lifestyle?
My precious 81-year-old Aunt May went to town to buy a new "deep freeze" this week. When she tried to use her Sear's card they wouldn't take it because she hadn't used it in over 15 years. They asked her why she hadn't used it in so long and she said "Well, I haven't needed anything!" She went to write them a check (she's totally loaded) and realized that her driver's license had been expired for over 2 years. Don't get worked up, she drives on country roads and probably only passes two cars/ week going less than 45 MPH.
But my assumption that things would get easier, really had more to do with my walk with the Lord, not with my outward circumstances. My logic was something like this: The longer you walk with Him, the more familiar He would become and thus the easier it would be to (a) understand Him and (b) Understand His ways.
But instead, I find the Mystery of Him so much more vast than I ever imagined. Melissa said "Why would it get easier to go from playing T-Ball to Little League to College ball to the Major Leagues? Why would we expect the 'opposition' to lessen rather than increase as we progress nearer and nearer to the heart of God?"
It wouldn't.
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I've been under the same delusion. I keep waiting for life to get easier. And so far I have been disappointed. Thanks for the reality check, Dr. Hubbard, got time for me?
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